About History…

History is not shaped by facts but by opinions.

Facts happen but reality is so far away from those few facts that have been stored in memory. We store subjectively.

They are stored once, individually and collectively, but they are changed, exaggerated, strengthened, every time they come up, every time you recall.

The extent of this depends on the frame each time because new circuits are formed, new facts and opinions are inserted automatically. If not, then we have unbent-ness, arteriosclerosis, Alzheimer’s and much more.

Deconstructing reality

Sentence structure in this article is deliberate. See if you can figure out why… also take time to remain on each separate viewpoint and consciously consider your own (clue: read with your right brain or your heart)

If you take it one step further and write down your own truths, that which you believe behind the masks of your roles, you will have a clearer picture of where you are heading and how.

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What are we looking for, where and how?

Everything that happens is for my own good.



Who is fit to judge this? What are tools that he has to judge?

Surely, the mind that files and categorizes does not seem to understand nor accept all that seem to threaten our very existence.

The more we try to control and to steer our personal life (because there is no other), the more we seem to be failing at the attempt.

We begin to search high and low, looking for answers, solutions, treatments and techniques, for the purpose of becoming “more able” to stand at the center of our lives and sense the value and meaning of our existence.

I don’t have to change the world, what a relief!

When people ask me what I DO, I invent all sorts of answers and they are different each time. I usually say, “I strip people of their deceptions” or “I am the bitch who mirrors to people what they don’t want to see” or better still, "I am the one who shakes you to awaken because you asked me to”. Anyway…

I’m not on a mission to save the world, change people or persuade anyone about anything. Nevertheless, I “specialize” on paradoxes, that often drive people crazy… sometimes I drive myself crazy too.

I’m a passionate person, so either you’re in or you’re out. Either you move your legs on the bicycle or you fall. As simple as that! Sometimes I see the hole, and drive right into it.

Why I am so “obsessed” with self-observation

 There is nothing else that you really need to look for or do, if you really learn to observe yourself and life. Everything that you will ever need, can be found in this plethora of information. Self-observation will reveal to you that all this is much more than you can comprehend or take in, at once.

I do not care to find the reason why we are not taught this at a very early stage, looking for answers in the past and blaming others or myself. That would be a big waste of energy for nothing, leading me nowhere. My time of interest is the present, which forms the future. That which I care about is who I am right now and what I am doing.

Freedom is earned!

So much theory going around and yet people are still in search for more. We’ve heard it all. What are we still waiting for?

And then I remember that not everybody has “heard it all” and that there are many people still, who are just beginning to doubt, search and also get consumed by all these theories and different opinions that we all seem to be bombarded with. Everyone is entitled to their own timing right?

Yet there is another group of people, the largest one I think. These are the people who have believed that they can get everything by giving nothing; that they can save time and money going from one free event to the next, that they can know truth by reading others’ opinions, that want to receive without risking anything… especially all that they consider valuable and scarce to them. And unfortunately, the truth is once again reversed!

Depression like you’ve never read about it before

Of course you’re entitled to give up, get depressed, want to escape this shit reality we are living as a society. The biggest mistake that you can do, is reject yourself for it or try to fix it by trying to impose the “love and light” theories that have absolutely no meaning in everyday real living.

What good are the theories when you don’t know where your next meal is coming from, when you cannot communicate with anyone, when you have so much anger inside you, when you have lost your job, when nothing means anything anymore? What good is trying to visualize “something positive”, when all the images that are coming cataclysmically to your mind are of destruction, uselessness and self rejection? The last thing that you need and can tolerate is some wise guy telling you to be positive, to “look on the bright side of life”. There IS no bright side! Come to terms with it, get a grip on it and accept it. You are rolling in shit and you are chaotically going round and round dark processes of thought. That’s it!

For courageous hearts and daring minds

 The ego is afraid of the silence more than anything. The emptiness, the loss of or non existence of fixed images or stable emotions. The fluidity of everything that holds nothing concrete and stable. The cataclysmic realization of not knowingness, which threatens its very existence. 

If you are a trained observer, you realize the discomfort, the need to escape the inevitable. You know that there is nothing that you can DO but ride through the reality emerging in your life’s cycle. It’s a lot more evident than anything you have experienced before. There are no images coming and going, no emotions shaping your psyche. There is just you floating, moving, yet seemingly stuck and nowhere. Only those who have dared the experience can recognize the words and the reality behind them.

It is a very important stage for your consciousness, one that the ego will fight to escape from, with every trick it has learned, following your previous tactics, which you have used to strengthen it.

On forgiveness

There can be no guilt…

There has never been an accusation; there is never a reason for forgiveness. Only the ego accuses and in its cowardice and ignorance to do so, it then feels powerful and courageous to arrogantly forgive.

But the spirit knows no need for forgiveness, for there has never been an accusation.

That is the outline. 

But I know that your belief structures, the way we have been brought up to think, all the garbage that most us still carry out within us, forbids you to just believe or simply discard that which you already think you know. Fair enough, and good enough too, because you should believe no one and nothing before you know for yourself. “Knowing” is of course very different from believing… it comes from your own personal experience, when you are ready to see, and not a second before.

Working for a paycheck or seeking your passion?

I understand that this is a difficult subject and one that cannot be taken lightly. All of us, from a very early age, are guided towards “thinking about our future”, deciding, “what we want to become when we grow up”, finding the job that will ensure our survival and hopefully, finding the “secret formula” for attaining great wealth.

Most of us end up either struggling between jobs, doing something that we are not sure is our life’s passion or succeeding yet feeling that “there was something else that we were supposed to be doing”, despite the fact that we have accomplished financial and social security.

If I were to tell you - like many others do – to search for your passion and not think about the money because “money comes to you when you follow your dreams”, I would be one more “easy preacher” with an ego agenda, searching for followers, being totally unrealistic! In fact, you are not going to receive any advice or any easy answers from this article.

I am rather going to take straight out of the box, and tell you things that your linear mind cannot capture and which have never been synthesized before. So, fasten your seatbelts, for we are going to travel high and wide for a while.

A few difficult questions

I would like to present you with a few probable subjects that we could discuss in future, in the form of articles that I could (or I will) write about.

As I would like this blog to be more inter-active and not a solo act, the following are many of the questions that have troubled me in the past, subjects that I realize need clarifying and issues that we have yet to solve on a collective level.

Feel free to comment on anything, to add your own thoughts or subjects of interest and especially think WITH yourselves, on these questions and/or subjects.

I am a very practical person and not into any theorizing at all. My interest is not merely to exchange beliefs and/or viewpoints but to make real changes in our perceptions and our lives. I hope you will join me in this venture, for as long as I can be here and share with you what I have learned so far and still learning, each moment.

In random order and in simple language:

How do we face Silence?

When there is silence on the outside, in your communications and relationships, it is time to accept and expand within.

Silence is misinterpreted by the ego. Wanting to know, it will draw its own conclusions, which are always limiting, no matter what they speak about.

When presented with silence, it is time to focus on the inside, on your own Self and release any inflicted “silences”, any disconnections. It is time to recognize beliefs and fears specifically and accept them, for they are a part of who you are. It is the way that you may once again embrace all, through Your knowing and your acceptance.

Unschooling; not as unknown a concept as we're led to believe

Unschooling means you don't "have to" do anything. You just follow your heart. Then each day becomes a whole new experience, everything you do matters and you exist in cooperation with life.

Learning is about discovering life through yourself and your environment. It is not about being programmed how and what to think, do or be.

Learning cannot be separated from fun, experiment, error and experience.

There is no “normal” or fixed pace to learning. Each must follow their own rhythm.

Learning is closely related to freedom as each individual takes steps into the unknown.

Wanting to control

Oh yes, I know the theory; "we are not meant to control but to allow" and "go with the flow". Sure, but... the process is usually unknown and I feel it is the essence of our human experience, where much joy, learning and expanding takes place. We tend to focus on destinations and before we realize it, we've been there, left and what's left is a bitter taste of bitterness because all that matter seem to pass by too fast.

Yet, as for the "good" as well as the "bad", the process is the same and being consciously aware makes all the difference. The greatest wonder of life is discovering and uniting our Self through our experiences.

Your Dark Side

Change?

You won't make it. You are more likely to end your life the way you started it; ignorant and miserable.

Your pathetic attitude of asking for help when, in reality, you wish to remain exactly where and as you are is undeniably evident.

All this talk of "love", your deep-rooted dependence on those and that which you (secretly) loathe, is cunningly manipulative.

You expect to be "sweet talked" and you hide behind robotic "good manners" and social ethics to avoid being honest, revealing who you really are.

You despise anyone who shows you the hidden parts of yourself and speaks to in a way you would never accept as your own.

Your angels and false gods, your greedy prayers and self-hatred make you vulnerable but "loved" by your kind.

The “Fall of Man”

Everyone speaks of a “Fall of Man”, which I cannot believe to be true, because I know it is not. Still stuck in the dual categorization of our educated minds, we strive to understand all that our mislead hearts cannot receive.

Every concept based on the “Fall” and all connecting concepts (“free will”, “salvation”, “awakening” etc.) are lies pointing to the Truth, which can be found only in one’s Heart and freed Mind.

To believe one or the other belief is easy and safe. Changing belief structures, thinking that we are expanding our consciousness is to remain ignorant of our own Unique Individuated existence within the cosmos.