A life worth living; grateful!

You can know something, when it doesn’t matter anymore…

Each day is a beginning and an ending, with so many beginnings and endings in between, that the “final curtain” doesn’t matter.

What we don’t embrace continues to haunt us.

What we deny persists.

What we accept and understand grows.

Life calls for deliverance of accusation, perhaps the ultimate exit from the matrices, so that we can exist within them lightly, expressing in wisdom.

Self vs Icons

There is no thesis without antithesis, no position without opposition. Accepting and over-riding both, births the new. 

The positive and the negative are also reversed, pressing for perception.

Don't assume an easy ride if what you started out for was freedom.

Friends will have the face of enemies and critics must lash out claiming their known ground. Each ache a test for your sincerity and innocence. Each agreement and ally a test for your ego's arrogance.

Nothing is ensured. Nothing is pre-specified. All opportunities remain open, all hells boil up. 

Awakening

Fear. The ascendant, dominating emotion.

The fear to shift, the need to preserve and defend. 

The control of the lower instincts.

This world is running on the lower instincts and the lower mind.

Not sure if people should awaken. They are definitely trying to control and monitor this "awakening". Maybe they should be left to their dream.

No Identity

The matrix wants you to sink in negativity, pity, Self-doubt (not the same as self-doubt). 
Words don't form easily anymore, when you begin to decode its secrets. They have all already been used to code the reality you have adopted.

It feels like you're sinking in time, blackness, exhaustion, anger, disgust, hatred; it's all there, no matter how much you attempt to hide or control it.

You first have to recognize where you are. You can't pretend not to be there.

It can always go lower, deeper. Because it can always go a lot higher. Why have we believed that it can't? That there is a "bottom" that we touch? A childish belief that we need to cling to.

Mystical pathways

Linear thinking doesn’t have the same mechanisms, logic, understanding, as the deeper, non-limited higher mind. Words have also different vibrations on different levels of consciousness.

You have to want to access your deeper/higher mind. It doesn’t come “naturally”, neither is it “on display”, so that you may “chose from”. That wanting has to be a deep burning, a yearning like no other, which will aid you in passing the layers of linear mind, remain devoted through the trials and barriers and passionate enough to be disciplined and humble yet self-respecting through the process.

Happiness

Happiness has very little to do with being happy or sad. It's not an emotional state, for emotions change, come and go, and all are welcome and accepted equally. 

"Happiness" is not even a correct word, for it belongs to the mind's concepts, fears, desires, beliefs, categorizations. Neither is "joy", "bliss" or any other word the correct one, for they each have their opposites, are already interpreted by the linear mind, excluding as much as they contain. The collective consciousness has yet to discover a term that best describes this much deeper state that virtual realities and the linear mind cannot reach.

Alone

So much to think about, to be creative, to help you!
But most of your thoughts are like trying to catch a falling star. They're so quick and so many. You blink and they're gone.

But you have been taught to "quieten your mind", to "stop your thoughts"...

If you're not familiar with and in tune with your own Mind, don't tell me what else you have mastered.

"Something to show". But what if what you have to show doesn't belong to this space-time? What if it cannot yet be seen, let alone be evaluated or categorized?

An all-powerful defense mechanism

The mind is selective. 

That’s a fact, not a preference. 

It’s the fundamental quality of individuation; the very reason of space-time creation. 

Every organ in an orchestra makes up the orchestra and the music it produces. There is much more in this simplified statement…

The art of existence begins AFTER the conscious realization of this fact.

The Return

The return... We must return. From "the same" path that we entered.

The return will be quicker, much quicker. The climb up was long, hard, beautiful and agonizing. The return will be purely apocalyptic. There comes a time/realization that future and past are the same, can be known.

I recognize the pathways. I walked, climbed, crawled, jumped, paved them myself.

People have so many misconceptions about “menopause” (what a word!), “aging”, “life”, “youth”… Thus society celebrates and respects none...

What a journey! Our words can’t yet find correct descriptions.
As I am contracting, so I am expanding. As I am withdrawing from society, so am I relating, communicating with/for those who understand.

Our Nature

For some unexplainable reason - the linear mind never knows beforehand but always pretends to know (if it's not controlled, given its proper role all over again) - yesterday I wanted to take a short stroll by the beach. I don't like the cold and wind. Yesterday was a windy, winter's day!

The waves were hitting the shore in rage, the wind was blowing my hair all over the place, the sky was gray, the clouds were piling up, moving closer and seeming highly threatening. Oddly enough, I wasn't feeling cold, but I still had no idea why I was there, other than "taking a walk on the beach on a winter's day" wasn't in my experiences. So, I enjoyed, I observed, I sensed, I emptied my mind...