Come back

Three years, three months and twenty six days ago I was seriously wondering if the world had gone mad or if I was on the wrong planet.

It wasn't the first time that such thoughts had entered my mind but this time they really hit hard! Really hit home; my very core of existence or not! A set of experiences played out in my life that challenged every level of survival that existed to be challenged. Another story to be told, which hasn’t been told yet, in all its extensiveness and details.

Fast forward three years, that which doesn’t kill you, births you!

It doesn’t “make you stronger”, as the saying goes! “Stronger” usually (practically) means tougher, less sensitive, untrusting, secluded, bitter. A limited, twisted concept, as most 3D, intellectual concepts are! And that’s what usually happens to people, when the transformation isn’t complete; a metamorphosis, a birthing of the new.

And now, in this unique year of 2020, it’s obvious that the whole world HAS really gone mad; humanity is on its knees! Although many of us have known for quite some time that it would eventually come to this, truth is that I never expected it to become so obvious, that it would happen in MY lifetime! Yet, now that it’s here, it all makes sense!

The greatest show on Earth! Involving – for the first time ever in all our known History – the WHOLE world and not just parts of it!

In an age of a plethora of information, from any source that one might desire, it’s obvious (is it?) that the intellect, with all its analysis, calculations, computing abilities, memory, is unable to come up with a new view, sustainable solutions or the certainty of knowing.

The old tools of reason, persuasion, analysis etc, are just not enough anymore. The intellect has reached its limits; it cannot move beyond the closed doors it can see and can't open.

In a way, it's the age of the right brain or the quantum mind. All methods invented, used and trialed for the left brain - linear mind, don't work beyond their jurisdiction. Logical yes, but far from practically, collectively acknowledged or understood.

Yet, this is a personal world!

Questions like "how many?" or "how long?" don't have any value in a non linear world; a quantum field of consciousness, the "next" level of existence. Quality over quantity, the individual versus the masses, consciousness over technology... concepts (among many others) that are waiting to be realized in real time, real life, for the essential transition to take place. Using the intellect to try to understand non linear, non sequential, non separated pieces of a much grander image, simply cannot be done.

The intellect with all its accomplishments can’t grasp that every creation is new; previously unexpressed, unmaterialized. The illusion of continuity, from one moment to the next leaves little room for the unexpected, unimagined or unthought of. A new day, a new relationship, a new kind of writing or communicating, even a new brushing of teeth; a new me! How could it lose its memory, all its knowing, everything gained? It’s not meant to!

A new kind of mind is needed to create! Not to take the place of the previous level of mind, the intellect, the linear computing, but to complement it, to complete it.

A creator – any kind of creator – always looks for that which is new; unrealized, unpracticed, undiscovered, unexpressed. Moving courageously towards the unknown, willing to fall, fail, proceed no matter what, unbroken, passionately innocent, willing to change, evolve, remaining devoted. 

Survival, repetition, existing in the known is not enough when you’ve already died and birthed, thus you have demystified the whole philosophical, scientific and prejudiced concept of death.

School’s definitely out! Everything – especially the subconscious indoctrination – has to go! Or creation is not possible. You just basically just repeat, follow, obey, believe; in short, constrain yourself to rules and previous knowledge, disrupting all that you can be. 

The definition of paranoia: doing the same thing over and over (or thinking in the same way, with the same mind that you already know to think with) expecting different results!

You always know – if you’re honest with yourself – if you’re still in that stuffy, dense, narrow space, having that crushing feeling of pointlessness, lacking excitement and awe, passionless and lacking the vitality, unwillingly following the same patterns, seeing only closed doors and restrictions, while you continue to blame, find excuses and defenses, which all leave you in stagnation, misery and isolation. An unsustainable inner world that CAN change! Simply because it’s not the only one that exists, just the only one that you’re swimming in.

But, no one can influence us more than we influence our self. That’s our prerogative!

The linear mind can see only closed doors that it cannot open, walls it cannot eliminate, obstacles it cannot cross. You can’t persuade it to do something that is sees as impossible to do.

A new level of mind is emerging (has been for some time) but is not yet commonly realized or academically and scientifically documented. Which doesn’t imply that it doesn’t exist!

One that includes all subjects, merges issues, runs on intuition rather than instinct, unites opposites, transcends duality, sees beyond the visible, conceptualizes rather than computes, is dynamically quantum, non linear, always changing.

How tragic that humans have been conditioned to be afraid to (really) get to know themselves; taught that the subconscious is a “scary and dark place”, that it’s unnecessary for navigating life or a luxury or only for the disturbed... and many more such false concepts! For there lies all truth, all knowledge, all answers and solutions! And there are no endings, there is no point of “arrival”, no finishing line…

 

My personal (tragedy) is always the same: to linearize the quantum concepts that I receive, present images not yet visible, find the words that have not yet been created. And in my linear mind I always know that I fail for I cannot include all in just one writing, one blog post, one dialogue. Still, the flame that burns in me pushes me to keep writing, keep looking, keep having interactive, creative dialogues...and blog posts.